Don't mind me. Really.
It's just that I think I am having a moment.
The kind that needs a BEX and a good lie down.
I really feel like I am losing grip. I am panic-stricken. Hormones maybe?
I should be feeling excited about doing this long awaited cycle.
Instead I am worrying about how I will control my anguish when this FET fails. How will I steel myself to face my 2 beautiful brothers & their pregnant wives?
I keep imagining how much Christmas will suck this year. My 2 heavily pregnant SIL's and me, barren & flat bellied. No paper hat will disguise my sadness.
The weight of failure is heavier than ever and I just don't know how to keep carrying it. Dramatic, I know. I am scared because I have always managed to keep my chin up, I have always managed to stay strong. But 4 years later there are cracks appearing. Stress fractures!
Please, please, please get me through this.
Please, please, please tell me where I can buy BEX?