Gratitude & Profanity

Disclaimer: To the small (but very sexy) bunch of readers who know me in REAL LIFE...this info is classified. We are not sharing these details openly. So, please feel free to talk to me or P about it, but until further notice button your plump, risque lips. Thank you darlings, B L K M and Corindi Crew....please continue!

I guess the golden rule is: "Never Assume"

Not just with IVF, or 20 fertilised eggs, or a BFP, or the 2nd trimester..or you know, the weather. Life is a stream of possibilities. You just never know what tomorrow will bring. I cannot express the comfort & sensibility your comments have given me. Thank you for urging me to remain calm, to question my situation, to consider the many possible outcomes. My cousin, herself an IVF veteran gave birth to a darling, healthy girl on Wednesday, despite having a "High Risk" NT result just last December. I recall her anguish & my fury that she should be burdened with such an added worry. Good practice for my own situation.
My tired little fingers, worn from "Info-Witching" and ravaging the Google Bible have uncovered many, many websites that show IVF patients have a higher instance of "High Risk" blood results, possibly due to extended synthetic progesterone use (more likely because we are such BITCHES and deserve further punishment!)
The fact that our ultrasound presented Hef with a nasal bone & a 2.0mm NT measurement is offering comfort. The NT scan itself provides a 75% accurate Down's gauge, while the blood test provides about 60%....the two combined with my age, Hef's crown to rump length & EDD are all taken into consideration to determine the "Risk" factor. There is only "Low" and "High" risk factors, no in-between.

I know my mood will sway over the next week. I am already considering not having the amnio. Talking to my doctor will help us make that decision. I believe the risk of miscarriage due to amnio is small. But endangering a potentially healthy baby is an agonising decision. This is true for any expectant parent. Whether they have waited 5 years and undergone 3 IVF treatments or not. It is not a decision we will take lightly.
Sigh. Fuck, it's all about being on the wrong side of the odds for us IF girls and boys isn't it? (Hello Smarsh, dude...!) We live with with odds stacked against us everyday. We rule the "Minority Gang" (in a very classy way). It all started when we became that 1 in 6 couples who needed ART. I went on to became that 1 in 1000 females to have a uterine anomaly... from there I descended into a vortex of odd beating mayhem. (Along with all of you RASCALS) And frankly, I'm dizzy.

Today, I know more about Nuchal Translucency than I ever muther-fucking wanted too.

Today, I know that Hef is alive.

Today, I know that I have a pram on lay by & a box of baby clothes in the room next door.

Today, I know that I am stronger for having you incredible, caring, foxy, mind-blowing people in my life.

Today, I know that I cannot change tomorrow.

But please, don't fuck with me you Odds/Percentages & High Risk skanky pigs. I've seen your kind so many times before. Trust me, Odds/Percentages & High Risk Co....I will toss you to the curb with a wedgie, a crowpeck & a bitch slap. Cause, I'm tough. And so are my cyber friends...right?
Plus, our Hef can do the Robot. And there is nothing abnormal about that, fuckers. Damn, I feel better. I may even perch my pregnant arse behind my drumkit & unleash...in defiance. Just like this! Rock On!