Mrs Negative

Mrs Negative embraces her tardy Positive. Life after IVF and loving the son I never thought I'd have.

Saturday, March 01, 2008

Belonging.


I can't quite explain how it feels to finally be a mother. Even to myself. It's so much broader than I ever imagined. Of course, I knew that being a mother meant having a child, but I never thought about all the...moments. The hundreds of tiny moments that combine together and create a day. Wiping his face. Putting on socks. Bathing him, clinging onto slippery arms as he thrashes, splashing suds into his own face. Announcing to no-one in particular "Oh, he's tired" or assuring Cooper that "I'm coming, just a minute" as he bellows from his crib.
I feel more important than ever before.
I feel more normal than ever before.
I feel like I finally belong.
And it is a feeling renewed everyday.

16 Comments:

Blogger christina(apronstrings) said...

as someone who has watched your story for years, (i used to be the oneliner) i can't convey how happy i am for you. it's about time, eh??

xxoxo

2/3/08  
Blogger Spanglish said...

Amen. Perfectly stated.

2/3/08  
Blogger Melissa said...

Beautiful.

2/3/08  
Blogger Stacie said...

I am right there with you. There is nothing like it.

2/3/08  
Blogger heleen said...

The belonging bring tears in my eyes. I have that.

2/3/08  
Blogger The Dunn Family said...

Beautiful. You don't realize how much the little day to day things will mean to you before you have a child, do you? I mean, I knew that first smiles and laughs would be amazing. But I never thought that EVERY smile there after would also make my heart melt. That just seeing them look for me in a room full of people would make me go "My god, they love me so much. I'm their MOM!".

It's an amazing amazing gift to have children, and the joy it brings me makes the pain all that much stronger when I think of all the people still trying to get here.

3/3/08  
Blogger Lut C. said...

That's exactly how it feels.

3/3/08  
Blogger Tiff said...

Aww..what a sweet post! I love hearing that you are enjoying your little guy so much. He really is ridiculously cute.

3/3/08  
Blogger Bugsy said...

Here Here! I know exactly what you mean. Almost every day I say to Hubbs "you're a Daddy! I'm a Mummy! - Wow" I wonder if one day I am going to believe it is true.

p.s. I still love washing little clothes. How about you?

3/3/08  
Blogger millie said...

What a beautiful post. And what a beautiful family.

3/3/08  
Blogger Gemini Girl said...

aww, you just made me cry.

4/3/08  
Blogger SaraS-P said...

oh, so much hope squeezed into one post!

thank you

4/3/08  
Blogger Fertility Faux Pas said...

Just stopped by for a quick visit to your blog...It had been a long time! I was thrilled to see this post here. I couldn't have said it better myself. Congratulations :)

5/3/08  
Blogger Sitting in Silence said...

And the feeling is magic.....

Complete and beautiful...

Love this post !

7/3/08  
Blogger Kirsten said...

oh yes, I know exactly how you feel. So happy for you sweetie

8/3/08  
Blogger Heather said...

I'm so there with you! My little miracle is seven years old now and she amazes me every day. And it's so cool that she loves spending time with me. It's so cool to experience the smiles, the laughter, the crying and the heartaches. Congratulations!

14/3/08  

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